So, I think I mentioned that town #1 was a bust for me, archive-wise? My thought then was: "A week! I should have gone to T. instead. Aarrrrgh!!!"
Now I'm in town #2, and though I found loads of stuff last week in archive A, that petered out by the weekend. Yesterday (Monday) archives B & C yielded nothing for this project.
There is a perverse part of me that always thinks the same thing when these things happen: "If I'd known, I wouldn't have booked so many days! I could have spent time in other, more productive places! Or I could have made a shorter trip and saved money!"
This is the way my brain works. It's also something I'm trying to change.
See, last night, my brain was starting to do that "You're wasting time and money, woman!" thing it does. And I had to pull my brain off to one side and tell it the following:
"Chill out, brain. You're looking at this all wrong. Sure, time and money are being spent, and we're not finding documents every day. But I emphasize that they are being spent, not "wasted." Think of all the things that these extra few days have allowed you to do. You are enjoying city #2 immensely, thanks to the generosity of a friend and that city's own considerable charms. You are practicing Blerg intensively. You are taking some good pictures, getting your eye back after a too-long hiatus. You are getting some "down time" – may I remind you of that hour and a half you spent sitting on the cathedral steps reading the novel in Blerg you picked up? And today, when you go to the archive, you will have the opportunity to track down that one citation that's been eluding you, to follow that trail of footnotes and see what document it leads to. Just remember that life ain't all about work, brain. Wasn't that something we were supposed to be working on?"